well currently i am simply lost in thoughts. unsure of what to do & where to go. whom to speak to & what to say. so much of things running through my head. A-Z i don't know why is this happening? O GOSH!!! my brain feels so cramped up. the thoughts have no where to run to accept to my heart, which is currently in burning agony. am feeling lost, unsatisfied i don't know which ever it is.
nothing in my life last forever. love, life, pet, home, food, everything anyone can ever think of. so far the only person who have been very constant with His love is God. but i can't even speak to him. "JESUS YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND, AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT" but at times people tend to be so down that they don't even speak to their best friend. haiz...
i serioulsy feel like bursting out to cry now. if someone were to come & hug me right now i think i would just start crying on their shoulders. my life is like a maze now & everywhr i turn is a dead end. ever since the start i know love has never been on my side but i just wanted to be strong with my choice. but now i am very weak, both physically & mentally. i don't even know if i have the strength to wake up for church tomorrow. NO! its not an excuse, i mean seriously i have no more strength. yes i agree i am very weak when it comes to love.
The Girl
- *ThE NoIsIeSt AbOvE aLL sILeNcE*
- I am a simple gal. With a beautiful dream, not knowing if all will come true. Many desires deep within my heart(hopefully I can blog about) not knowing where to go. But because I am a very outspoken & bold I think I managed to climb up certain stairs in my life, which brought light into my life... And now I am progressing =) Well I wouldn't really say simple as have been pampered since young. So ya... I only update my blog once in a blue moon, like a thriller story you know? Excited to know what is in the climax.. LOL... Anyway, hope you enjoy reading my blog! MUAAAAHHH!!!
31.10.09
HER HEART SAYS...
Make it in you divine?
My heart has been crushed and is bleeding.
It is empty and void within.
But you say this is the heart you chose,
To come and abide herein.
My heart, it has been rejected,
It has suffered oh such pain.
And now you want to cradle it in your arms,
And consider it your gain.
Who am I that you should bother?
Who am I that you should care?
I am just a shattered mess,
My heart is scattered everywhere.
But there is something deep inside me,
That wants to trust you oh so much.
So I will sweep up all the pieces,
And accept you healing touch.
My heart has been crushed and is bleeding.
It is empty and void within.
But you say this is the heart you chose,
To come and abide herein.
My heart, it has been rejected,
It has suffered oh such pain.
And now you want to cradle it in your arms,
And consider it your gain.
Who am I that you should bother?
Who am I that you should care?
I am just a shattered mess,
My heart is scattered everywhere.
But there is something deep inside me,
That wants to trust you oh so much.
So I will sweep up all the pieces,
And accept you healing touch.
DISTORTATION!!! - H.A.T.E.U..!!!
once upon a time, we swore not to say goodbye something got a hold of us and we changed
then you sat alone in pride
and I sat at home and cried
how'd our fairytale just end up this way
we went round for round til' we knocked love out
you were laying in the ring, not making a sound
and if that's a metaphore of you and I
why is it so hard to say goodbye
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you..
love is, was a love phenomenon no one could explain
and i wish, i could press reset and feel that feeling again
i sit and press rewind and watch us everynight..
wanna pause it, but i can't make it stay
round for round til' we knocked love out
you were laying in the ring, not making a sound
and if that's a metaphore of you and I
why is it so hard to say g'bye
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you..
no need to call my phone cause I changed my number today
a matter a fact, I think i'm moving away (away)
sorry, the fustrations got me feeling awake
and i just keep having one last thing to say
and i just wanna hold you, touch you,
feel you, be near you, i miss you baby baby baby..
i'm tired of try'na fake through, but there's nothing I can do..
boy I can't wait to hate you..
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these, emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you.. baby..
I can't wait to H.A.T.E.U.
~ SERIOUSLY AM STARTING TO HATE MY LOVE LIFE... IT'S BEING TORN INTO PIECES, AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH FURTHER I CAN GO... I DO NOT HAVE THE STRENGTH NOR THE ENERGY ANYMORE... HAIZ!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO ????? MY HEART IS SUPER HEAVY... I THINK I GONNA DIE IN HEART BREAK SOON... MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL DYING OFF!!! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO??? STUCK!!! AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHH!!!!! HATE THIS BULLSHIT FEELING!!! ~
then you sat alone in pride
and I sat at home and cried
how'd our fairytale just end up this way
we went round for round til' we knocked love out
you were laying in the ring, not making a sound
and if that's a metaphore of you and I
why is it so hard to say goodbye
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you..
love is, was a love phenomenon no one could explain
and i wish, i could press reset and feel that feeling again
i sit and press rewind and watch us everynight..
wanna pause it, but i can't make it stay
round for round til' we knocked love out
you were laying in the ring, not making a sound
and if that's a metaphore of you and I
why is it so hard to say g'bye
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you..
no need to call my phone cause I changed my number today
a matter a fact, I think i'm moving away (away)
sorry, the fustrations got me feeling awake
and i just keep having one last thing to say
and i just wanna hold you, touch you,
feel you, be near you, i miss you baby baby baby..
i'm tired of try'na fake through, but there's nothing I can do..
boy I can't wait to hate you..
I can't wait to hate you
make you, pain like i do..
still can't shake you off..
I can't wait to break through
these, emotional changes..
seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you, down so low
there's no place left to go..
I can't wait to hate you.. baby..
I can't wait to H.A.T.E.U.
~ SERIOUSLY AM STARTING TO HATE MY LOVE LIFE... IT'S BEING TORN INTO PIECES, AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH FURTHER I CAN GO... I DO NOT HAVE THE STRENGTH NOR THE ENERGY ANYMORE... HAIZ!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO ????? MY HEART IS SUPER HEAVY... I THINK I GONNA DIE IN HEART BREAK SOON... MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL DYING OFF!!! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO??? STUCK!!! AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHH!!!!! HATE THIS BULLSHIT FEELING!!! ~
30.10.09
29.10.09
BaT oF aN EyE
too lilttle time to make a desicion. what the hell am i suppose to do? o fuck! hate it when this happens. today is the 29/10/2009. if i wanna quit my job i have to tender tomorrow. i need to help dad with issues too. aiya!!! i dunno what to do, AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! such a difficult position. i don't wanna leave my SUPER BEST colleague on earth. seriously, both of us have similar likings, thinkings & hatreds. lolz.. gonna miss her lotz. but at times we have to make decisions based on reality & not our emotions.
Languishing
If you could only see
That I was not put here for you
To judge me and dispute my inner most truth
And after all these years of enmity, envy and tears
It's a shame you don't know me at all
I was wondering
Would you cry for me?
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
If I was drowning, suffocating
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
Those ancient buried recollections
We transform them and select them
You have yours, I have mine
That's fine
While we're too torn to heal
Our stitch has never disappeared
I have mine, you have yours
I'm sure
I was wondering
Would you reach for me
If you saw that I was languishing
I was wondering would you cry for me
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
If I was drowning, suffocating
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
That I was not put here for you
To judge me and dispute my inner most truth
And after all these years of enmity, envy and tears
It's a shame you don't know me at all
I was wondering
Would you cry for me?
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
If I was drowning, suffocating
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
Those ancient buried recollections
We transform them and select them
You have yours, I have mine
That's fine
While we're too torn to heal
Our stitch has never disappeared
I have mine, you have yours
I'm sure
I was wondering
Would you reach for me
If you saw that I was languishing
I was wondering would you cry for me
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
If I was drowning, suffocating
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
28.10.09
Captured In Jitters
MY HEART IS BEING CAPTURED IN FEAR.
FEAR OF LIFE & DEATH.
NO WHERE TO RUN NO WHERE TO HIDE.
I LOVE U VERY MUCH PAPA.
A FEAR HELD IN MY HEART.
EVERYNIGHT BEFORE I CLOSE MY EYES.
A SMALL PRAYED TO THE LORD ABOVE.
A SPECIAL PROTECTION FOR MY DADDY,
THE ONE WHOM I LOVE.
A HUGE FEAR HAS GRIPPED MY HEART.
NOT KNOWING IF WHAT I SENSE,
TRUE OR NOT.
A FEAR WHICH SAYS,
"YOUR DADDY'S LAST DAYS ARE HERE"
I CANNOT IMAGINE A LIFE WITHOUT MY DADDY.
O LORD, PLEASE HAVE SOME MERCY.
TO SPARE ME MY FATHER,
THE ONE I LOVE DEARLY.
TO STAY WITH ME LONGER THAN I WOULD EVER WANNA KNOW.
TO THOSE WHO MADE THIS FEAR ATTACK MY HEART,
IT IS A WARNING FOR YOU.
IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY DADDY,
THE ONE I LOVE DEARLY,
ANYTHING HURTING,
YOUR LIVES ARE IN DANGER.
YOUR HOME, KIDS,
YOUR WORK YOUR LIFE,
ALL IS AT DANGER NOW.
IF ANYTHING, AND I MEAN IT,
ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY DADDY,
EVERYTHING MENTIONED ABOVE IS GONE FROM YOU.
YOU WILL SUFFER TILL YOUR LAST BREATH
CAUSE YOU MADE MY FAMILY SUFFER
AND YOU MADE MY DADDY,
THE ONE I LOVE,
VANISH FROM THE WORLD...
P.S each & every word is from the bottom of my heart not taken from anyway.
FEAR OF LIFE & DEATH.
NO WHERE TO RUN NO WHERE TO HIDE.
I LOVE U VERY MUCH PAPA.
A FEAR HELD IN MY HEART.
EVERYNIGHT BEFORE I CLOSE MY EYES.
A SMALL PRAYED TO THE LORD ABOVE.
A SPECIAL PROTECTION FOR MY DADDY,
THE ONE WHOM I LOVE.
A HUGE FEAR HAS GRIPPED MY HEART.
NOT KNOWING IF WHAT I SENSE,
TRUE OR NOT.
A FEAR WHICH SAYS,
"YOUR DADDY'S LAST DAYS ARE HERE"
I CANNOT IMAGINE A LIFE WITHOUT MY DADDY.
O LORD, PLEASE HAVE SOME MERCY.
TO SPARE ME MY FATHER,
THE ONE I LOVE DEARLY.
TO STAY WITH ME LONGER THAN I WOULD EVER WANNA KNOW.
TO THOSE WHO MADE THIS FEAR ATTACK MY HEART,
IT IS A WARNING FOR YOU.
IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY DADDY,
THE ONE I LOVE DEARLY,
ANYTHING HURTING,
YOUR LIVES ARE IN DANGER.
YOUR HOME, KIDS,
YOUR WORK YOUR LIFE,
ALL IS AT DANGER NOW.
IF ANYTHING, AND I MEAN IT,
ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY DADDY,
EVERYTHING MENTIONED ABOVE IS GONE FROM YOU.
YOU WILL SUFFER TILL YOUR LAST BREATH
CAUSE YOU MADE MY FAMILY SUFFER
AND YOU MADE MY DADDY,
THE ONE I LOVE,
VANISH FROM THE WORLD...
P.S each & every word is from the bottom of my heart not taken from anyway.
26.10.09
steadfast heart
well my heart has been very obedient towards my mind. so far my hard has been very firm not giving in much & acting like not bothered. LOLZzzz...
YYYEEEEAAAYYYY!!! I HAVE SUCCEEDED!!!.
* well it is only for this few days only i can prolong all this *
YYYEEEEAAAYYYY!!! I HAVE SUCCEEDED!!!.
* well it is only for this few days only i can prolong all this *
MY SISTER'S KEPPER
SiLvEr JuBiLee
well my boyfriend jason is gonna be 25 this coming November. was kinda stressed on what to do where to bring him and all. eventually i think everything is kinda settled so yea =)
firstly his b'day is on the 12 but we planned to celebrate on the 13 as 12 falls on a thurs & 13 is a fri so aft that itz the weekends already. FRIDAY THE 13TH " it was the guy name jason killing everyone " what the fuck? ok yea... i know i am over exaggerating.
ok have planned to bring him on the flyer for dinner but the menu sucks. it only have 3 main dishes and i feel it is a waste of money so am planning to bring him to ION Swensens. it is actually a buffet . if i order a main course + the buffet, the buffet will cost around $12.90 but if it is just the buffet alone the price range will be around $20++... so yea am gonna bring him there...
well i only can tell the dinner part now as the others i cannot from morning till dinner, what we gonna do ? it is a secret SSSSSHhhhhhhhhh!!!!! call me to find out more =)
firstly his b'day is on the 12 but we planned to celebrate on the 13 as 12 falls on a thurs & 13 is a fri so aft that itz the weekends already. FRIDAY THE 13TH " it was the guy name jason killing everyone " what the fuck? ok yea... i know i am over exaggerating.
ok have planned to bring him on the flyer for dinner but the menu sucks. it only have 3 main dishes and i feel it is a waste of money so am planning to bring him to ION Swensens. it is actually a buffet . if i order a main course + the buffet, the buffet will cost around $12.90 but if it is just the buffet alone the price range will be around $20++... so yea am gonna bring him there...
well i only can tell the dinner part now as the others i cannot from morning till dinner, what we gonna do ? it is a secret SSSSSHhhhhhhhhh!!!!! call me to find out more =)
25.10.09
Lets Walk Down
C.H.u.r.C.H
well yes people i manage to get my ass off to church. went to epiphany with mum & lil sis. we were waiting for the bus like so long it was drizzling while waiting for 39. hahahaharx after it ended the bus still didn't arrive, so annoying. than went to church was late, nvm. thomas anneh used to tell me " rather be late than not coming at all " . so that is like stuck into my head la than saw afe of them. didn't speak much to anyone cause i was super tired. i was super duper hungry too so dad drove us to eat after eating went to buy some groceries with mum. walk here & there talk nonsense hahaharx just like young times. than came back. mum & dad are shifting all the things here & there well mine is done. so yea they ain't disturbing me. my head is rocking like a rocking chair don't know why. may be cause the weather is so nice and my eyes are pulling me to sleep but neh, jason is coming over soon so am waiting for him.
what is life if it only consists of eating & sleeping but nothing interesting? hahahaharx very true. but the hell most of the time i am super lazy so what i do is eat & sleep. but that made me realise that it is gonna cause no excitement in my life. i wanna do something out of the blue, bored of my life so quiet and everday is like a routine. morning wake up go work come home eat sleep. than if it is weekends than do something interesting like what the hell? nvm...
anyway saw some of the christmas deco going up at cityhall it was in gold & silver quite nice. well can't wait thou christmas is gonna be celebrated at papa new guinea. not confirmed no promises yet but mum is planning to fly over and celebrate with bro in a different environment... so yea...
halloween is nearing, planning to bring rose go downtown this coming weekends. just for the thrill of it and yea so we can grab many pix. not sure if we gonna dress up. dressing up is still onhold but going downtown is confirmed.
well yea.. so far thatz it will update later if there is more =)
what is life if it only consists of eating & sleeping but nothing interesting? hahahaharx very true. but the hell most of the time i am super lazy so what i do is eat & sleep. but that made me realise that it is gonna cause no excitement in my life. i wanna do something out of the blue, bored of my life so quiet and everday is like a routine. morning wake up go work come home eat sleep. than if it is weekends than do something interesting like what the hell? nvm...
anyway saw some of the christmas deco going up at cityhall it was in gold & silver quite nice. well can't wait thou christmas is gonna be celebrated at papa new guinea. not confirmed no promises yet but mum is planning to fly over and celebrate with bro in a different environment... so yea...
halloween is nearing, planning to bring rose go downtown this coming weekends. just for the thrill of it and yea so we can grab many pix. not sure if we gonna dress up. dressing up is still onhold but going downtown is confirmed.
well yea.. so far thatz it will update later if there is more =)
StRiKe On Ma MiNd
well yes people i was too bored yesterday not knowing what to do had alot to post on. lolz.. i was figuring out more on the blog and what was "this" & "that" for and all... lolz... anyway i put up pic of me & my sweets as i got the idea from cynn... thanks girl.. cause i was always wondering how to do ans since i was super free yesterday i started playing around with my blog to see what there was & where i could put what .
well am kinda too used to waking up early in the morning, so yea woke up not knowing what to do came to blog. am still pondering whether to go to church or not well u know wht laziness strikes, HAIZ!!! need to get up from my bed, bath, DRESS UP, walk, WAIT FOR THE BUS, AIYO... eazy use to tell me last time, "GOD HATES LAZY PEOPLE" ~ it is still in my head eazy ~ o gosh, what the hell.? but i know no matter what God still loves me, cause i am his little princess. YYYEEEAAAYYY!!!!
if i am going to go to church, what am i suppose to wear? that is the next question. HAIYA... hate to think so much early in the morning. SHARON HAS GOT SO MANY COMPLAINS SIA !!! yesh i know lolz. what to do ? SINGAPOREAN WHAT!!! ok am blabbering nonsense in the morning... lolz..
later jason said he will be coming over after church, we are spending time as much as we use to before. well due to some irritating people flapping their lips at him & poking fire than we had fight cause we had different views on the situation. ever since than i thought i should not give in too much. yes he knows i love him very much and i know he loves me alot too but at times i feel that i have given in too much. HAIZ... so i have to firm with my views & feelings. =D
well am kinda too used to waking up early in the morning, so yea woke up not knowing what to do came to blog. am still pondering whether to go to church or not well u know wht laziness strikes, HAIZ!!! need to get up from my bed, bath, DRESS UP, walk, WAIT FOR THE BUS, AIYO... eazy use to tell me last time, "GOD HATES LAZY PEOPLE" ~ it is still in my head eazy ~ o gosh, what the hell.? but i know no matter what God still loves me, cause i am his little princess. YYYEEEAAAYYY!!!!
if i am going to go to church, what am i suppose to wear? that is the next question. HAIYA... hate to think so much early in the morning. SHARON HAS GOT SO MANY COMPLAINS SIA !!! yesh i know lolz. what to do ? SINGAPOREAN WHAT!!! ok am blabbering nonsense in the morning... lolz..
later jason said he will be coming over after church, we are spending time as much as we use to before. well due to some irritating people flapping their lips at him & poking fire than we had fight cause we had different views on the situation. ever since than i thought i should not give in too much. yes he knows i love him very much and i know he loves me alot too but at times i feel that i have given in too much. HAIZ... so i have to firm with my views & feelings. =D
24.10.09
Inseparable
Call my phone…
Baby call my phone…
Baby call my phone…
Baby call my phone…
I be waitin’ to hear your ring tone…
Call my phone…
Baby call my phone…
Baby call my phone…
I be waitin’ to hear your ring tone…
Lost without my other
Half- how can I live with out you
Half- how can I live with out you
I don’t want another
That’s why I’m messed up about you
Can’t even dream with out seeing you
Why should I even try to breathe
And everything is off, without you
Guess it’s all my fault, ladies sing the blues
No one could deny it
We were flying like United
thought we’d never be divided
Cause the love we had inside us was…
Inseparable
If youre up in this song
And you’re searching for the moment when two hearts went
wrong
Inseparable
jealous of your love
Cause you swore you’d never ever give it up
Cause you’d thought that ya’ll was
Inseparable
Thought we stay together
Always and forever
But now I see that no one is
Inseparable
Inseparable
Except for us
One of us just got to pick the phone up
Cause I know we’re still
Inseparable
Got photos of us on my refrigerator
Videos on my phone, boy I just cant erase them…
The first text I ever got from you still saved in my inbox
And I read it like time after time
Boy I’m lost, can’t you look, won’t you please find me
I’m down to my last tear, come rescue me
See it’s broken my heart, to the point where I don’t need it,
has no reason now to beat
cause I just ain’t the same with out you
Boy I know we’re…
Inseparable
If you open this song
And you’re searching for the moment when two hearts went wrong
Inseparable
And jealous was your work
Cause you swore you’d never ever give it up
Cause you’d thought that ya’ll was
Inseparable
Thou we stay together
Always and forever
But now I see that no one is
Inseparable
Except for us
One of us just got to pick the phone up
It’s been 16 days since I held you tight
Balled up me and my pillow in the middle of the night
Boy I just wish you show up and make everything alright
So what you waiting for?
Cause both us have thought of we’re
Inseparable
If your up in this song
And you’re searching for the moment when two hearts went wrong
Inseparable
jealous of your love
Cause you swore you’d never ever give it up
Cause you’d thought that ya’ll was
Inseparable
Thou we stay together
Always and forever
But now I see that no one is
Inseparable
Except for us
One of us just got to pick the phone up
Cause I know we’re still
Inseparable
If youre up in this song
And you’re searching for the moment when two hearts went wrong
Inseparable
jealous of your love
Cause you swore you’d never ever give it up
Cause you’d thought that ya’ll was
Inseparable
Thou we stay together
Always and forever
But now I see that no one is
Inseparable
Except for us
One of us just got to pick the phone up
Cause I know we’re still
Inseparable
My Angel
MIMI'S NEW ALBUM IS OUT!!! YEEEEAAAYYYYY!!!
LOVE ALL HER SONGS & HAVE GOT ALL HER SONGS LIAO...
AM DAMN HAPPY LA...
LOVE MARIAH SO MUCH!!!
SHE IS MY ANGEL BABY!!!
Run This Town (Feat. Kanye West & Rihanna) lyrics
Rihanna
Feel it coming in the air
Hear the screams from everywhere
I’m addicted to the the thrill (I'm Ready)
It’s a dangerous love affair (C'mon)
Can’t be scared when it goes down
Got a problem, tell me now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
We gon’ run this town
Jay-Z
We are, yeah, I said it, we are
This is Roc Nation, pledge your allegiance
Get y’all fatigues on, all black everything
Black cards, black cars, all black everything
And our girls are blackbirds, riding with they Dillingers
I get more in-depth if you boys really real enough
This is La Familia, I’ll explain later
But for now, let me get back to this paper
I’m a couple bands down and I’m tryna get back
I gave Doug a grip, I lost a flip for five stacks
Yeah, I’m talking five comma six zeroes dot zero
Back to running circles ’round niggas, now we squared up
Hold up
Rihanna
Life’s a game but it’s not fair
I break the rules so I don’t care
So I keep doing my own thing
Walking tall against the rain
Victory’s within the mile
Almost there, don’t give up now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Who gon’ run this town tonight?
Jay-Z
We are, yeah, I said it, we are
You can call me Caesar, in a dark Caesar
Please follow the leader, so Eric B we are
Microphone fiend, it’s the return of the God, peace God
And ain’t nobody fresher
I’m in Maison, uh, Martin Margiela
On the table, screaming f@#k the other side, they jealous
We got a bankhead full of broads, they got a table full of fellas
And they ain’t spendin’ no cake
They should throw they hand in, ’cause they ain’t got no spades
My whole team got dough
So my bankhead is lookin’ like Millionaires’ Row
Rihanna
Life’s a game but it’s not fair
I break the rules so I don’t care
So I keep doing my own thing
Walking tall against the rain
Victory’s within the mile
Almost there, don’t give up now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Who gon’ run this town tonight?
Kanye West
It’s crazy how you can go from being Joe Blow
To everybody on your dick, no homo
I bought my whole family whips, no Volvos
Next time I’m in church, please no photos
Police escorts, everybody passports
This the life that everybody ask for
This a fast life, we are on a crash course
What you think I rap for? To push a f@#kin’ Rav 4?
But I know that if I stay stunting
All these girls only gon’ want one thing
I could spend my whole life good will hunting
Only good gon’ come is it’s good when I’m cumming
She got an ass that’ll swallow up her G-string
And up top, uh, two bee stings
And I’m beasting, off the re-sling
And my nigga just made it out the precinct
We give a damn about the drama that you do bring
I’m just tryna change the color on your mood ring
Reebok, baby, you need to try some new things
Have you ever had shoes without shoestrings?
What’s that, Ye? Baby, these heels
Is that a May-what? Baby, these wheels
You trippin’ when you ain’t sippin’, have a refill
You feelin’ like you runnin' , huh?
Now you know how we feel
Feel it coming in the air
Hear the screams from everywhere
I’m addicted to the the thrill (I'm Ready)
It’s a dangerous love affair (C'mon)
Can’t be scared when it goes down
Got a problem, tell me now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
We gon’ run this town
Jay-Z
We are, yeah, I said it, we are
This is Roc Nation, pledge your allegiance
Get y’all fatigues on, all black everything
Black cards, black cars, all black everything
And our girls are blackbirds, riding with they Dillingers
I get more in-depth if you boys really real enough
This is La Familia, I’ll explain later
But for now, let me get back to this paper
I’m a couple bands down and I’m tryna get back
I gave Doug a grip, I lost a flip for five stacks
Yeah, I’m talking five comma six zeroes dot zero
Back to running circles ’round niggas, now we squared up
Hold up
Rihanna
Life’s a game but it’s not fair
I break the rules so I don’t care
So I keep doing my own thing
Walking tall against the rain
Victory’s within the mile
Almost there, don’t give up now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Who gon’ run this town tonight?
Jay-Z
We are, yeah, I said it, we are
You can call me Caesar, in a dark Caesar
Please follow the leader, so Eric B we are
Microphone fiend, it’s the return of the God, peace God
And ain’t nobody fresher
I’m in Maison, uh, Martin Margiela
On the table, screaming f@#k the other side, they jealous
We got a bankhead full of broads, they got a table full of fellas
And they ain’t spendin’ no cake
They should throw they hand in, ’cause they ain’t got no spades
My whole team got dough
So my bankhead is lookin’ like Millionaires’ Row
Rihanna
Life’s a game but it’s not fair
I break the rules so I don’t care
So I keep doing my own thing
Walking tall against the rain
Victory’s within the mile
Almost there, don’t give up now
Only thing that’s on my mind
Is who gon’ run this town tonight
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Heeeeeeeeey heeeeeeay
Who gon’ run this town tonight?
Kanye West
It’s crazy how you can go from being Joe Blow
To everybody on your dick, no homo
I bought my whole family whips, no Volvos
Next time I’m in church, please no photos
Police escorts, everybody passports
This the life that everybody ask for
This a fast life, we are on a crash course
What you think I rap for? To push a f@#kin’ Rav 4?
But I know that if I stay stunting
All these girls only gon’ want one thing
I could spend my whole life good will hunting
Only good gon’ come is it’s good when I’m cumming
She got an ass that’ll swallow up her G-string
And up top, uh, two bee stings
And I’m beasting, off the re-sling
And my nigga just made it out the precinct
We give a damn about the drama that you do bring
I’m just tryna change the color on your mood ring
Reebok, baby, you need to try some new things
Have you ever had shoes without shoestrings?
What’s that, Ye? Baby, these heels
Is that a May-what? Baby, these wheels
You trippin’ when you ain’t sippin’, have a refill
You feelin’ like you runnin' , huh?
Now you know how we feel
23.10.09
EnChAnTiNg
i need a stomach like that to fit into that dress... but cool shit i seriously love the dress... OMG!!! can someone can this for me as a christmas present cause seriously i don't know where to get them... the detailing for the dress top!!!strong>
RhApSoDiZe
HOT STUFF MAN!!!
I SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH MARIAH!!!
SHE IS SO HOT, CAN SING AND HER CURVES!!!!
BOOYA!!!
22.10.09
Time To Kill
well am reading this book now, currently am in the 3rd chapter hope to finish it soon. it is about a father (nigga) fighting for his daughters justice. as the daughter was being raped by white people. the summary for the first 2 chapters are below.
Chapter 1
Before the reader meets Carl Lee Hailey and Jake Brigance, the rape scene is played out in horrific detail. Readers meet the little black girl whose rape will incite her father to cold-blooded murder and the white rapists who are just about to commit their final crime in this world. Two rednecks, Billy Ray Cobb and Pete Willard, perch on Billy Ray's tailgate, drinking and smoking pot. They take turns raping a ten-year-old black girl. Cobb, who has done time in prison, profits from a lucrative narcotics business. Willard, older and less intelligent, pretty much "works for" Cobb, paid mostly in dope. The two white men picked up the little girl on a gravel road, walking with a bag of groceries. She is on the ground in a clearing, naked and tied with a rope.
Chapter 2
Ozzie Walls is the sheriff of Ford County, his birthplace, He was elected by a white majority and is proud of it because he is the only black sheriff in Mississippi. He is beloved and respected by the citizenry in general. Now he is investigating the Hailey rape case, and Billy Ray Cobb, with his mean streak, is his prime suspect. Ozzie sends his deputies out to find but not arrest Cobb. Walls and Deputy Hastings travel together to the hospital where Tonya Hailey is in surgery. Carl Lee and Gwen are in shock and non-responsive, so Gwen's brother explains that Tonya has been repeatedly raped. She has broken bones and a concussion. Gwen's brother suggests that the sheriff place the culprits, when apprehended, in a jail in another town, for their own safety.well the book is kinda interesting as it talks about justice for black people, law, betrayal, and about a father's love. Hope to finish it soon so that i can move on to the next book given to me by nat for my b'day & still have not read it yet. it is on shakespeare's book of errors or something like that. i guess nat is gonna kill me for not reading it till now. he got it for me in march on my b'day. sorry nat couldn't find time...
LOLZ..
21.10.09
FrIeNdShIp =)
Friendship is a relationship with broad, ambiguous, and even shifting boundaries. The terms friend and friendship mean different things to different people and different things to the same people at different times. To think and communicate effectively about the topic, people find it necessary to use distinctions such as true friends, best friends, good friends, casual friends, work friends, social friends, and friendly acquaintances. In spite of friendship's vague and seemingly indefinable quality, friendships contribute in important ways to psychological development and health and well-being from early childhood through the older adult years.
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant
I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow
And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be for meand the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night
I'm not ashamed to sayI hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow
And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hardly here
I will stand real close and say
THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE WITH ME THROUGHOUT ALL THICK & THIN. NOT EVERYONE WILL STAY WHEN THERE IS A PROBLEM ALL OF YOU MR FRIENDS HAVE BEEN BY ME. THIS IS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR ALL MY FRIENDS. AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOU ARE A FRIEND OF MINE, IT IS FOR YOU =)
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant
I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow
And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be for meand the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night
I'm not ashamed to sayI hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow
And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hardly here
I will stand real close and say
THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE WITH ME THROUGHOUT ALL THICK & THIN. NOT EVERYONE WILL STAY WHEN THERE IS A PROBLEM ALL OF YOU MR FRIENDS HAVE BEEN BY ME. THIS IS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR ALL MY FRIENDS. AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOU ARE A FRIEND OF MINE, IT IS FOR YOU =)
20.10.09
female intuition
I'm just a simple girl
In a high tech digital world
I really try to understand
All the powers that rule this land
They say Miss J's big butt is boss
Kate Moss can't find a job
In a world of post modern fad
What was good now is bad
It's not hard to understand
Just follow this simple plan
Follow your heart
Your intuition
It will lead you in the right direction
Let go of your mind
Your Intuition
It's easy to find
Just follow your heart baby
You look at me
but you're not quite sure
Am I it or could you get more?
You learn cool from magazines
You learn love from Charlie Sheen
If you want me let me know
I promise I won't say no
You got something that you want me to sell
Sell your sin. Just cash in.
You got something that you want me to tell
You'll love me. Wait and see.
If you want me
Don't play games
I promise
it won't be in vain
Uh-uh-uh
19.10.09
Shopping For LABELS...
well yes...
i love to shop thats for sure. shop till i drop thou. than after that i no money "bo liao"...
lolz...
anyway...
i guess even thou i love to shop i don't shop for LABELS...
labels meaning labelling people... not brands ah...
hmmmmm...
well...
what am i talking about ? just like a drunkard who will blabber shit. i am blabbering shit too. if this post doen't appeal to you than PLEASE do not get your head high up alright. Thank you very much for your corporation...
DADDY - when you do something always do fully, don't leave it hanging half way.
MUMMY - don't give in to people, don't see sympathy.
BRO - walk according to what your dream shows you
MALEY - if you have to fight for your rights than fight for it
ROSE - *jinx* you owe me a soda
ok...
well, this is what my family has brought me up with. the goodness they have put in me. everyone is brought up in a different way. yes, i agree i was the pampered princess till rosey was born than afew years no pamperation & back to it again. i am still the princess of the family. wooooohoooo... "DADDY'S LIL PRINCESS" & "MUMMY'S LIL GIRL" ...well that can't be helped i will be a princess. living the way i want, buying & getting what i want.
HAHAHAHAHARX...
but i aint as bad as Princess Desirae. she is a spoilt brat . ok ok ...
well i am someone who have learnt to accept facts like if i am wrong than i am wrong, if i am right than i am right. if i know something means i know it if i don't mean i don't. so it can get annoying when people around assume they know something i actually know but claim they "KNOW IT ALL" but they don't. i mean come on learnt to accpet it people. if you suck than u suck if you don't than you don't.
i have my reasons on why i did certain things & why i reacted in a certain way. i aint an angel drop from the sky you know i also have feelings & emotions & thru that i tend to hurt some people sometimes. well certain things are best when it is accepted the way it is & people don't understand that. WHY??? i have got no idea. how long am i suppose to keep bottling up my emotions about people & not letting it go? i don't show people i really hate them unless they really destroyed my life or made me go mad or something, other than that i have no reason to hate someone or ever wanna hate someone. yes i admit i have spoken to the people i have bitched about. everybody does that. common don't come & tell "NO I WON'T" and all that crap. cause to me itself you have bitched about others & than go & talk to them. when i bitched about that someone, that someone knows that i bitched about her cause i told her straight & she did understand why i did that & have already apologised. countless number of time where you came & told me " YOU KNOW AH ... BLAH BLAH BLAH... " and than following day i see you are talking with her. what the fuck ? AIYA!!! don't know la, that's why i say... people say others than they themself? hmmmmm...
i love to shop thats for sure. shop till i drop thou. than after that i no money "bo liao"...
lolz...
anyway...
i guess even thou i love to shop i don't shop for LABELS...
labels meaning labelling people... not brands ah...
hmmmmm...
well...
what am i talking about ? just like a drunkard who will blabber shit. i am blabbering shit too. if this post doen't appeal to you than PLEASE do not get your head high up alright. Thank you very much for your corporation...
DADDY - when you do something always do fully, don't leave it hanging half way.
MUMMY - don't give in to people, don't see sympathy.
BRO - walk according to what your dream shows you
MALEY - if you have to fight for your rights than fight for it
ROSE - *jinx* you owe me a soda
ok...
well, this is what my family has brought me up with. the goodness they have put in me. everyone is brought up in a different way. yes, i agree i was the pampered princess till rosey was born than afew years no pamperation & back to it again. i am still the princess of the family. wooooohoooo... "DADDY'S LIL PRINCESS" & "MUMMY'S LIL GIRL" ...well that can't be helped i will be a princess. living the way i want, buying & getting what i want.
HAHAHAHAHARX...
but i aint as bad as Princess Desirae. she is a spoilt brat . ok ok ...
well i am someone who have learnt to accept facts like if i am wrong than i am wrong, if i am right than i am right. if i know something means i know it if i don't mean i don't. so it can get annoying when people around assume they know something i actually know but claim they "KNOW IT ALL" but they don't. i mean come on learnt to accpet it people. if you suck than u suck if you don't than you don't.
i have my reasons on why i did certain things & why i reacted in a certain way. i aint an angel drop from the sky you know i also have feelings & emotions & thru that i tend to hurt some people sometimes. well certain things are best when it is accepted the way it is & people don't understand that. WHY??? i have got no idea. how long am i suppose to keep bottling up my emotions about people & not letting it go? i don't show people i really hate them unless they really destroyed my life or made me go mad or something, other than that i have no reason to hate someone or ever wanna hate someone. yes i admit i have spoken to the people i have bitched about. everybody does that. common don't come & tell "NO I WON'T" and all that crap. cause to me itself you have bitched about others & than go & talk to them. when i bitched about that someone, that someone knows that i bitched about her cause i told her straight & she did understand why i did that & have already apologised. countless number of time where you came & told me " YOU KNOW AH ... BLAH BLAH BLAH... " and than following day i see you are talking with her. what the fuck ? AIYA!!! don't know la, that's why i say... people say others than they themself? hmmmmm...
17.10.09
AnTiDotes.
i realise people have never lived their lives to the fullest or maybe they don't know what is the meaning of living their lives to the fullest. than a question will turn back to me, "do you know the meaning of living your life to the fullest???" well i think i do. as i always live for today & not for tomorrow. u can plan for tomorrow but do not live for tomorrow. WADEVA..
while lunch yesterday i was walking around and observing different people * well must observe liao lor cause got specialist diploma in psychology mah* ok not bragging people. so don't go around saying i showing off this & than. anyway while i was doing 1 of my module my lecturer told me to ALWAYS & ALWAYS observe the people around me. so i put that to work yesterday & i saw many people walking aimlessly in the MRT station. no life or no desires? i don't know but just wondering...
well yea...
why did i name my post antidotes? cause people just can't stop flapping their lips & have to talk & talk & talk about others. why ah ? cause we are humans i guess. lolz...
OH & i do these things very well. gossip queen? neh don't think i m that good yet but will have high aims. lolz.
antidotes for human mouths are a thing call "forgive & forget"...
OH LOOK WHO'S TALKING... ok ok i know i suck at that but yea that is something God has given to us but we aint using. since we claim that we love God the most and all. Claiming is not enough, action speak louder than words & if we ain't gonna action on it than don't say it. "LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOURS AS YOURSELF" or "IF SOMEONE SLAPS YOU ON ONE SIDE SHOW HIM THE OTHER" but remeber he didn't say show him your back thou. lolz... *DO NOT USE GOD'S NAME IN VAIN* we christinas are pefect in doing this. "WE" includes ME!!! so don't say i am saying others... =)
PRACTISING WHAT YOU PREACH...
people tend to go around & say you must do this... this... this... & that... that... that.. & expect us to behave in such a way, but THEM? no nuts... they will be worst than us. but they will go around saying we are the bad ones. hmmmmm... world world... what is the world up to ? I HAVE GOT NO IDEA....
well all i know is we shouldn't be sucking up to each others balls & should be who we are... people love us for being who we are? good... if people don't that too bad there are others who still do...
the song by ladt soverign "LOVE ME OR HATE ME" yea... use to love the song alot cause it was very meaningful & i think it still is. yea it has vulgarities like "IF U HATE ME THAN FUCK YOU" well still the song has a meaning behind it...
well its deepavali today, the day of light as according to the hindus belief, we christians can celebrate cause its a hindu festive? hmmmmm it really depends on individual so yea.. i am a christian & a BAD ONE that's for sure... ooops "SORRY THOMAS ANNEH" he told me never to say that... lolz.. but that's the fact... so yea... i don't do the morning rituals like doing "padyale" is that how they spell it ? who cares... so yea.. i just go everyone house EAT... collect money... take many pix & enjoy... WOOOOOHO...
so yea... gotta go bathe now & i wanna go get ready...
so yea
cheers...
*i didn't create this post to offend ANYONE so please don't take it personally, basically it's all about myself, please read & enjoy THANKS =)"
while lunch yesterday i was walking around and observing different people * well must observe liao lor cause got specialist diploma in psychology mah* ok not bragging people. so don't go around saying i showing off this & than. anyway while i was doing 1 of my module my lecturer told me to ALWAYS & ALWAYS observe the people around me. so i put that to work yesterday & i saw many people walking aimlessly in the MRT station. no life or no desires? i don't know but just wondering...
well yea...
why did i name my post antidotes? cause people just can't stop flapping their lips & have to talk & talk & talk about others. why ah ? cause we are humans i guess. lolz...
OH & i do these things very well. gossip queen? neh don't think i m that good yet but will have high aims. lolz.
antidotes for human mouths are a thing call "forgive & forget"...
OH LOOK WHO'S TALKING... ok ok i know i suck at that but yea that is something God has given to us but we aint using. since we claim that we love God the most and all. Claiming is not enough, action speak louder than words & if we ain't gonna action on it than don't say it. "LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOURS AS YOURSELF" or "IF SOMEONE SLAPS YOU ON ONE SIDE SHOW HIM THE OTHER" but remeber he didn't say show him your back thou. lolz... *DO NOT USE GOD'S NAME IN VAIN* we christinas are pefect in doing this. "WE" includes ME!!! so don't say i am saying others... =)
PRACTISING WHAT YOU PREACH...
people tend to go around & say you must do this... this... this... & that... that... that.. & expect us to behave in such a way, but THEM? no nuts... they will be worst than us. but they will go around saying we are the bad ones. hmmmmm... world world... what is the world up to ? I HAVE GOT NO IDEA....
well all i know is we shouldn't be sucking up to each others balls & should be who we are... people love us for being who we are? good... if people don't that too bad there are others who still do...
the song by ladt soverign "LOVE ME OR HATE ME" yea... use to love the song alot cause it was very meaningful & i think it still is. yea it has vulgarities like "IF U HATE ME THAN FUCK YOU" well still the song has a meaning behind it...
well its deepavali today, the day of light as according to the hindus belief, we christians can celebrate cause its a hindu festive? hmmmmm it really depends on individual so yea.. i am a christian & a BAD ONE that's for sure... ooops "SORRY THOMAS ANNEH" he told me never to say that... lolz.. but that's the fact... so yea... i don't do the morning rituals like doing "padyale" is that how they spell it ? who cares... so yea.. i just go everyone house EAT... collect money... take many pix & enjoy... WOOOOOHO...
so yea... gotta go bathe now & i wanna go get ready...
so yea
cheers...
*i didn't create this post to offend ANYONE so please don't take it personally, basically it's all about myself, please read & enjoy THANKS =)"
14.10.09
DaMseL in DiStrEss!!!
HEEEEEEELPPPPP!!!!!!!
to much stress to handle...
waaaay way way to much...
come to wok the stress load has multiply cause SHE isn't around & the "operation" side is slacking...
nothing is done & nothing is updated...
how to survive like that ?
i don't know & have no idea...
daddy was telling me to try checking out at mindef using my cert if there is any vacanccy...
see how...
when i have time i wanna check liao la..
no time wanna waste on this time of DRAMA MAMA people...
when SHE's around they act damn good...
act like the best worker in the world & when she isn't around...
WAH LAH...
the true colours comes out...
ARRRRRGGGHHH!!!...
really feel like giving them a piece of my mind..
what the fuck right ?
anyway...
MY BOYFRIEND'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!
i am like more stress over this than anything else in the world la....
like what the hell??
less than a month to go...
haven't got him his shirt...
& confirm the dinner location...
anni said she will help me out...
hmmmm...
plans for morning till evening is confirmed...
all i have to do is confirm & pay money thats all..
but dinner location still stuck..
AIYAIII!!!...
this is where the problem comes in...
what to do ? what to do?
hmmmmmm....
have afew places in mind but duno leh where...
still confused...
this monkey is a fussy eater & i must make sure he likes the food if not no use planning the whole dinner tingy...
HELP SOMEONE!!!!!!!!
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
I AM DROWNING IN CONFUSION!!!!!!!
to much stress to handle...
waaaay way way to much...
come to wok the stress load has multiply cause SHE isn't around & the "operation" side is slacking...
nothing is done & nothing is updated...
how to survive like that ?
i don't know & have no idea...
daddy was telling me to try checking out at mindef using my cert if there is any vacanccy...
see how...
when i have time i wanna check liao la..
no time wanna waste on this time of DRAMA MAMA people...
when SHE's around they act damn good...
act like the best worker in the world & when she isn't around...
WAH LAH...
the true colours comes out...
ARRRRRGGGHHH!!!...
really feel like giving them a piece of my mind..
what the fuck right ?
anyway...
MY BOYFRIEND'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!
i am like more stress over this than anything else in the world la....
like what the hell??
less than a month to go...
haven't got him his shirt...
& confirm the dinner location...
anni said she will help me out...
hmmmm...
plans for morning till evening is confirmed...
all i have to do is confirm & pay money thats all..
but dinner location still stuck..
AIYAIII!!!...
this is where the problem comes in...
what to do ? what to do?
hmmmmmm....
have afew places in mind but duno leh where...
still confused...
this monkey is a fussy eater & i must make sure he likes the food if not no use planning the whole dinner tingy...
HELP SOMEONE!!!!!!!!
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
I AM DROWNING IN CONFUSION!!!!!!!
12.10.09
MaLeY's B'dAy
Well 9 october was maley's b'day...
this shots was taken while we were wondering in clarke quay on friday evening...
wondering what to eat...
HHHMMmmmmMMmmm....
Atlast...
and than...
Atlast dinner time...
The prawns i ate
Jason trying to make some float...
plate full of cakes...
THE END!!!
this shots was taken while we were wondering in clarke quay on friday evening...
wondering what to eat...
HHHMMmmmmMMmmm....
Atlast...
We went to Central to eat at Manhattan's Fish Market...
Got flaming grilled prawn platter...
It was good but we were full...
LOLzzzZZzzz...
The b'day gal was sooooooooo tired that she slept her way back...
hahahahaharxxx...
* i think tired of walking around *
and......
her birthday continues...
saturday 10/10/2009....
brought her to instant glamour for a birthday makeover...
and it ended around 1 plus so while waiting for Jason...
we walked around Clarke Quay again...
and than...
her friend called us over to her house for awhile...
so this was on the way there... 
Atlast dinner time...
Dinner at Sakura International Buffet...
WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOO...
We ate like nobody's business...
We ate like we gonna blow any moment...
The prawns i ate
Jason trying to make some float...
"sprite float"
plate full of cakes...
which i finished...
THE END!!!
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