missed u monkeys

HAIZ...
ytd was a pretty tiring day...
aft wrk went to kathib coz mummy in law cooked hot dog sambal...
wow her cooking just rox la...
she can really make some1 who hates eating eat non stop...
seriously la...
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!
if someone needs to fast or go on a diet rite they sholud avoid going there for a while...
esp ME!!!!!!!
everytime wana diet...
go there all plans screwed...
so sad...
"temptation in my heart"
LOLZ..
yea as i was saying went to kathib...
packed food..
than left around 8.30am to pass Naddy saree for the photoshoot tomorrow...
Naddy has opened a new photography tingy in her place but juz oni started...
so she wans to try it on me too...
she if it wrks out...
need indians & dark skin ppl too..
anyway...
so i met her up around 10pm @ loyang pt wen she came with fateha..
a long lost classmate...
while walking she told me she saw LYDIA , ASHMITA & GAJAN!!!!!
OOOOOOO...
MISSED THEM SO MUCH!!!!!!
it has been ages since we hang out & chatted...
wen we all sit down & chat we won't stop...
we tend to gossip abt everyting in d world...
we chatted till 12am...
SHIT!!!!
tadz wen i rmb...
itz late...
wrk tomorrow...
HAHAHARX...
so wen back home...
while walkin back...
i spoke to ced for awhile...
than aft i hung up..
2mins later...
serena called..
spoke to her for awhile...
than reached home...
tried sleepin but cant...
dono y...
toss & turn... toss & turn...
HAIZ..
now i have lack of sleep...
OMG!!!!!!!!
later i have to meet ced up & go F.O.P 2009........
woooooooohoooooooooo...
excited over eveyting...
the makeover...
F.O.P...
lalalala....


GAJAN - the lame shit...
ASHMITA - the DJ FUNKY MONKEY TA...
LYDIA - redgerl...

all the chaaaarrrrrrt frenz whom i have missed

LISTEN

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feelingI'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my ownI don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving onIf you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own


I WAS LISTENING TO THIS SONG IN THE BUS...
SO THOUGHT OF BLOGGING IT...

SUNRISE...

i love to see the sea . the sun rise , sun set & the full moon...
so while i was going back home yesterday,
i was seeing the sun set ...
sadly was in the train...
but that did not stop me from taking pix of the sun set...
some was successful while others were not...

i got so angry that from the train i cannot get the sun set exact pics...
once i got down from the train...
i went to a blk near by 804 & took some shots...

TO MY BOIFREN!!!

ADVICE= an opinion or recommendation offered as a guide to action, conduct.
CONDEMN= to express an unfavorable or adverse judgment on; indicate strong disapproval.

DEAR BOIFREN

ABOVE ARE THE MEANINGS OF WORDS YOU ASK ME TO FIND OUT THE MEANING FOR. I HAVE DONE SO ASK YOU CAN SEE.

FIRST...
I CANNOT LEARN TO LOOK AT SOMETHING POSITIVE IF YOU DON'T HELP ME...

SECOND...
I DID NOT ASSUME ANYTHING...
CAN U PLS SPECIFY WHAT DID I ASSUME?

THIRD...
I DID NOT CALL MYSELF A PSYCHOLOGIST & NEVER DID!!!
I ONLY SAID FUTURE PSYCHOLOGIST...
& THAT IS IF I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO MOVE ON...

FOURTH...
WHAT'S WRONG IN SAYING GOD GAVE ME SOMETHING?
I DON'T HAVE THE CONFIDENT TO PRACTICE SOMETHING WHICH GOD GAVE ME...
DUE TO THAT I AM NOT PRACTICING...
BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN I WILL NEVER EVER PRACTICE IT IN MY LIFE...
IT JUST TAKES TIME...
& ENCOURAGEMENT...

FIFTH...
PLEASE EXPLAIN WHICH ONE DID YOU TELL ME FOR MY OWN GOOD?

~ THIS IS ALL FOR MY EXPLAINATION FOR UR LIST ~

NOW REPLY FOR YOUR BLOG...

IF MY BLOG HURTS YOU MEANS...
IT IS HOW MUCH I AM HURT...
THOSE ARE JUST WRITTEN WORDS WHICH COULD EXPRESS HOW I FEEL...
BUT AT THE SAME TIME THERE ARE OTHER FEELINGS WHICH I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN...
ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO BE MY TOWER...
SOMEONE WHOM I CAN LEAN ON DURING MY DARKEST HOURS...
BUT IT IS NOT LIKE THAT...
FIND SOMEONE ELSE???
HELLO...
MY DIALOGUE FOR ME IS IT???
AFTER ALL WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH YOU WANT ME GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE???

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared
,And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there-
pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you andI can reach the sky again.
I can do anything'
Cause your love is so amazing,'
Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend
,You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...

THIS GREEN WORDS ARE ALL I WANT FOR THE BOTH OF US TO BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER...
HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND!!!

WITH LOVE

WIFEY...
( YOUR ONE & ONLY )

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! THIS TIME I M MAKIN MY STAND!!!

I AM SERIOUS!!!
SICK OF YOU ALWAYS LOOKING DOWN ON ME!!!
OK!!!
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!
I HAVE NEVER SAID A WORD TO YOU NOR LOOK DOWN ON YOU IN ANYWAY!!!
GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD!!!
IT WILL NOT TAKE ME A SINGLE SECOND TO LOOK DOWN ON YOU...
UNDERSTAND!!!

WHEN I UNDERGO DEPRESSION YOU ACT LIKE YOU CARE!!!
WHEN I CUT MYSELF YOU ACT LIKE YOU CARE!!!
WHEN I START CRYING FOR NO REASON ...
JUST OUT OF THE BLUE...
YOU GET SCARED & WORRIED...

NOW...
SINCE I ALWAYS HAVE THAT SMILE ON MY FACE...
& ALWAYS TALK & GIVE IN TO YOU...
YOU THINK THAT I AM BACK TOM NORMAL...
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T CUT MYSELF OR START CRYING OUT OF THE BLUE...
YOU THINK I AM FINE...

I AM TRYING TO PULL MYSELF UP!!!
OK!!!
BUT IF YOU ARE GONNA CARRY ON LIKE THIS...
I CAN NEVER MOVE ON...
I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GROW...
YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE THERE SUPPORTING ME THROUGH EVERYTHING...
BUT IT'S THE OPPOSITE...
YOU ARE THE 1 WHO IS CONDEMNING ME THE MOST!!!

IF SOMEONE ELSE COME TO ME & LOOK DOWN ON ME...
I WOULDN'T BOTHER...
BUT OUT OF ALL PEOPLE IN THE WORLD...
IT IS YOU!!!
NOT ONCE NOT TWICE...
OVER & OVER AGAIN...

I AM SICK & TIRED OF IT...
UNTILL YOU CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME...
I WILL KEEP MY DISTANCE...
THE DAY YOU ARE PLAANING TO LOOK AT ME IN A MORE POSITIVE WAY...
THATS THE DAY WHEN I WILL BE...
THE NORMAL PERSON TO YOU...

THIS TIME I AM MAKING MY STAND FIRM..
I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU LOOKING DOWN ON ME...
ENOUGH OF ALL THE HURT I AM GOING THROUGH...
YOU THINK ONLY YOU HAVE STRESS?
ONLY YOU HAVE EMOTIONS?
ONLY YOU HAVE THIS & THAT ?

NO!!!
I ALSO HAVE...
OK!!!

I HAVE LET MY EMOTIONS OUT FOR NOW!!!
OK...
TADZ IT...

weekends...

HMMMM...

wekends was not too bad after all...
sat had nothing mush to day went to learn keyboard and stuff..

well sunday was tiring...
went to church... (YCCA)
now i must put which church i went to...
cause i am part of 2 churches ...
LOLZ..
wrong / right i dono...
atleast still going to some church than ending up in a temple...
after church went to my house in Kathib...
wanted to sleep ao tired...
but all wanted to go swimming...
Joel nicely sleeping...
HAHAHARX..
but eventually we went...
but didn't stay long...
as all was tired & the water was super duper cold...
EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW...
I HATE COLD WATER...
anyway...
Joel , Serena , Kelvin , Shawn , Jason & I went...
after swimming...
we leftthe pool around 7.30pm...
the guys were waiting for Serena & me in Joel's car in the carpark...
our plan was to change & leave...
but it was too cold at the same time temptation..
OVER WHAT ???
THE SAUNA!!!
so we went into the sauna for awhile...
than changed...
the guys were making so much noise...
HAHAHAHARX...
but they didn't know that we went sauna...
LOLZ... shhhhhh...
after that went to eat...
this people really got big heart...
Jason & i were really super broke...
Serena , Joel & Shawn ...
combined their money & sponsored all for dinner...
it wasn't in a very big place or sophisticated place...
we went to a near by coffeeshop...
but this people really have a very big heart...
I also must really do something for this people one of these days...
especially Joel...
he has been a very big helper from last time...
i would say he is God's blessing in my life...
than we all left at about 9 plus...
Joel dropped us..
than went home..
but it was really a super tiring weekend..

saturday...

today i woke up at about 10 am...

couldn't really sleep longer than that...

after that was so surious how to cut song...

i having been having the programme for so long...

and was trying to figure out how...

& wah la...

got it...

i manage to cut a few songs...

than went to meet Serena at 2pm in Yishun MRT station...

went to learn keyboard...

have learnt the major chords from her quite some time back...

so today we just refreashed on them...

than she thought me minor chords..

and i manage to play some songs in full...



WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!



wad a victory???



soon i will learn melody & than i will be a keyboardist...

after than started their prac for tomorrow...

finished at 7pm ...

waited for my switheart...

went home...

"mummy" cooked nasi goreng today...

very spicy so couldn't really eat...

ate only the chicken than gave it to switty...

now watching " ADDU KUTTU" ...

dono wad movie but just watching....

gonna go home soon..

so tired...

Growing old together

after work ...
i was heading to Jason house...
i took 851 ...
while travelling half way ...
suddenly an old couple came on board the bus ...
so cute...
the old man & the old man were hugging each other...
so daaaaam sweet la..
than after some time the old lady laid on her hubby's shoulders..
they were watching the roads & happily chatting about stuffs...
when i saw the couples...

my thoughts were...

they don't know when their last breathe is...
but they are enjoying every moment they have together...
every moments they have..
they are spending it specially...
looking at them made me think many things...
will i grow old with the 1 i love?
or will we separate..?
how far will we go..?
many confusions....

HMMMMM....

JUST SOME THOUGHTS...
AS USUAL...
IMAGINATION RUNNING WILD AGAIN...

YEEEEAAAAAY!!!!!!!

I have passed my exam...
wooohooooooo...
i am know a graduate now...
a counsellor ready...
waiting for my cert...
WWWWWWOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO....
was so afraid that was gonna reapeat my module...
but this i would really say...
ALL THANKS GOES TO GOD!!!
without God i don think i would have come this far...

RESULTS!!!!!!!!

results will be out soon...
so scary...
cause this last module's results would determine on whether i get my cert...
i don wana repeat my module again...

SOOOOOOO
SCARRYYYY!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all my modules i manage to pull through..
now left this 2......

=(

PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HA...
atlast...
she's gone back early...
evertime go home never say bye...
i don't care as long i get the peace that i want...
now...
nobody to disturb my CR's...
my customers...

talking about my custoemrs...
i realise that during your worst down times...
customers are the ones who actually bring joy to me...
let see if i can name them :

*PRINCESS FRAGRANCE - CLIFTON
*CHUA SIEW CHOO - MDM QUEK
*WORLEY PARSONS - MARGARET
*RESOURCES - KAVEE
*DBS - BERLINDA
*SIMBA - MICHELLE / JACK ( ppl who buy us all tea )
*MORGAN STANLEY - LIZA

hmmmm...
this are some of my customers whom i remember at the moment...
who will never fail to bring a smile to me...
despite the situation i am in...

but there are some...
OMG!!!
they can reali piss the shit outta you...
seriously...
i don wana name them..
but AAAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
this people are the last thing i wana see on earth...

but other than these few handful "CHEEZED UP" bunch of annoying humans...
life is fine in XDel ...

UNTILL...

"girls..! ur pay will be delayed!" or "girls ah girls ur cpf ah ....." or "GIRLS!!! this that this that"

HAIZ...

hate all this bullshit story...
i mean...
come on...
what the hell are they talking about ?
MY HARD WORK ... MY TIME ... MY MONEY!!!

what else can i say...
all i can do is SIGH...
BUT EVERYTHING THEY WANT MUST BE PERFECT...
BUT FOR US???
NOTHING IS EVER DONE ON THE DOT...
WHY ?
isn't this unfair?

i really don't know what to say la...
but nvm...

today is friday...
it is good that she is off so early...
i mean if she was around also she is not doing anything...
cause all her shit we clear...
nvm...
let it be...

=)

STRESS SEE THAT BITCH!!!

every morning when i wake up i feel the morning breeze..

i drag myself to the shower...

cause i know i have to go to work...

i HAVE to work caus eof my school fees...

will reach work at about 7.45am but work starts @ 8.45am...

so will be facebooking & blogging...

at about 8.40am my colleague LYNN (switheart ) will come in...

we will gossip than comb hair put powder...

& what so ever...

the calls will start coming in slowly and at about 10 plus the phones will go...

"KRING KRING KRING KRING KRING KRING KRING"

AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

so annoying...

we have to be like some goddess trying to save ALL the calls...

some BITCH will just walk with so much make up on her face & wearing mini skirt shouting "DROP CALLS !!! DROP CALLS!!!"

like wtf right?

HAIZ...

as usual lynn & i would ignore...

continue speaking to our customers on the line...

i mean if the customer is on the line..

how to drop calls?

seriously...

gonna tell the customer...

" sori i cannot speak to you or sorry i cannot let you know our services"?

like what the hell...

she don't know head or tail...

come in ready start ordering people..

how i wish i could just go straight to her face and yell at her...

"LATE COMER!!! LATE COMER!!!"

she's really so annoying...

& than after lunch the calls tend to be quiet...

since she is infront of me but on my left..

i can see everything she's doing ...

so what was she doing?

my boss & her...

"KUCHI KUCHI KOOOOOO"

OMG!!!!!!!

disgusting...

professionalism?

where is it?

down the drain?

she loves to talk about being professional...

but the hell is your professionalism?

ever heard of practice what you preach???

i doubt she has never heard of it...

AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH....

after finish whatever she needs to do with him...

she will come to us...

GALZ!!! " THIS THAT THIS THAT ... Y THIS THAT ... ? Y NEVER DO THIS Y NEVER DO THAT??? "

anger just shoots up up & away...

as usual..

we just ignore...

than at about 5pm she & boss will leave...

than she don't bother saying bye...

which we don't really care mush about...

but ...

don't be so "YA ! YA ! " la...

so annoying...

SHE 1 PERSON CAN ADD ON TO MY STRESS LEVEL... MAKE ME EAT MORE WHEN I STRESS BECOME FAT... EAT CHOCOLATE HAVE MANY PIMPLES!!!!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after everything like to act nice...

which is so obvious it isn't sincere...

IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!

sad sad...

CANT SEE ANY ECLIPSE !!!

RAIN RAIN RAIN!!!!!!!!!

WAAAAHLAAAAAAAAOOOOOO!!!

ECLIPSE...

today is suppose to be Eclipse in the morning ... so excited cause it was said that this is the longest eclipse ever in 500 yrs... hope to see something soon...

This is apparently also an unprecedented opportunity for observers in China to find out whether gravity fluctuates during an eclipse. This phenomenon was first observed in 1954. The July eclipse, at over five minutes, will be the longest total solar eclipse predicted for this century.

What's more, the event will occur when the sun is high in the sky; a time when any potential gravitational anomaly should be greatest.Solar eclipses have long been associated with calamity. And the media has some stories about this upcoming eclipse with efforts by scientists to dispel such notions.From an email from Channel U Promo:

This Wednesday 22 July 2009, a total eclipse of the Sun will be visible to some parts of the world, making it the longest total eclipse in the 21st century. The path of the moon’s umbra begins from India and crosses through Nepal, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Myanmar and China. After leaving mainland Asia, the path crosses Japan’s Ryukyu Islands and curves southeast through the Pacific Ocean where the maximum duration of totality reaches 6 min 39 sec.Seen from Singapore, only 10 to 20 per cent of the Sun will be obscured. However, audience will get to catch the sensational moment of total eclipse live on Ch U.From 8 - 11am on 22 July, Channel U will simulcast live with China Central Television (CCTV) which will present live telecasts from key China cities - Chengdu, Wuhan, Tongling and Hangzhou where the total eclipse will be seen at its most spectacular. A half-hour special highlights will be shown at 11.30pm on the same day.

the world needs healing & love

What's wrong with the world mama?

People living like aint got no mamas

I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama

Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma

Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism

But we still got terrorists here livin

In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK

(not only USA ... here in s'pore within our own indians oso have... not only indians but humans who are neighbours... )

But if you only have love for your own race

Then you only leave space to discriminate

And to discriminate only generates hate

And if you hatin you're bound to get irate

Yeah madness is what you demonstrate

And that's exactly how anger works and operates

You gotta have love just to set it straight

Take control of your mind and meditate

Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing people dying

Children hurtin you hear them crying

Can you practice what you preach

Would you turn the other cheek?

Father Father Father help us

Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me got me questioning

Where is the love?

It just ain't the same all ways have changed

New days are strange is the world the insane?

If love and peace so strong

Why are there pieces of love that don't belong

Nations dropping bombs

( emotional bombs & emotional hurting chemical gases )

Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones

With ongoing sufferingAs the youth die young

So ask yourself is the loving really strong?

So I can ask myself really what is going wrong

With this world that we living in People keep on giving in

Makin wrong decisions

Only visions of them livin and

Not respecting each other

Deny thy brother

The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover

The truth is kept secret

Swept under the rugIf you never know truth

Then you never know love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder

As I'm getting older y'all people get colder

Most of us only care about money makin

Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media

Negative images is the main criteria

Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria

Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema

Whatever happened to the values of humanity

Whatever happened to the fairness and equality

Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity

Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity

5 Blessings on Sunday

19/7/09

As usual, like everyother sunday mornign i woke up & went to YCCA. Praise & Worship was solid by aunty Ester b. HA. People use to cindemn her & say she cannot make it but today her worship was really really good. Due to her humble heart God has really blessed her. As usual went sermon. I was only very upset that i had to money for offertry. The end was Michelle's cake cutting.

Usual after church ends Jenefa or myself will msg mummy ( Jenefa & Jason Mum ) and ask what she cook. When Jenefa msg her she replied " No money haven't cook " we were scared cause there was no food at home & even worst none of us had money to buy anything back to cook. Walking out from church Jenefa told me, never mind miracle can happen. I told her miracles can happen, yes but God has time only inbetween the time we left church and the time we reach home.

Let me talk about the 5 blessings...

1) When we went home there was prawn sambal to eat. ( ON A DAY WHERE ALL HAVE NO MONEY & THOUGHT HAD NO FOOD , AMAZINGLY IT WAS PRAWN SAMBAL )

2) Jason's pay was not suppose to go in till 20/7/09 after 2pm. But when he checked on 19/7/09 his pay went in.

3) When Jason calculated his pay, it is suppose to be only $440 but in his bank he had $530. ( FOR HALF A MONTH'S PAY AFTER CPF DEDUCTION & ALL THIS IS STILL ALOT. )

4) I was broke for the whole week but suddenly i had money with me. I had $70 to run the week & that is amazing for someone whowas broke for a week.

5) That was the last day of pasar malam under Jason's blk. We were sad that we could not buy any burger from there but before closing we went down to buy.

This are the 5 blessings which I saw right infront of my eyes. I could not believe that such things happen. But I learnt that if you believe in God he will do miracles.

=)

FUNERAL

12/7/09

Shanti akka (Jason’s Cousin Sis) she passed away @ 3.30pm. she was diagnosed with Small bowel cancer. What is that? I had to go and do research & stuff to find out. In the end I found out it was the small intestine.

Cancers affecting the small bowel are rare. In the UK approximately 750 people are diagnosed with a small bowel cancer each year.

The small bowel forms part of the digestive system and extends between the stomach and the large bowel (or colon). The small bowel is divided into three main parts: the duodenum, the jejunum and the ileum.
The small bowel folds many times to fit inside your abdomen and is approximately 5 metres (16 feet) in length. It is responsible for the breakdown of food to allow vitamins, minerals and nutrients to be absorbed into the body. Although the small bowel makes up three-quarters of the digestive system, cancers in this area are rare.

(BASICALLY SMALL INTESTINE)

There are four main types of small bowel cancer and they are named after the cells that they develop from:

Adenocarcinoma:

These tumours start in the lining or internal skin layer of the bowel. They are the most common type of small bowel cancer and usually appear within the duodenum.

Sarcoma:

These tumours develop in the supportive tissues of the body, such as the muscle or fat. Leiomyosarcomas are sarcomas that usually grow in the muscle wall of the small bowel. These more commonly occur in the ileum.

Another rare type of sarcoma is gastrointestinal stromal tumour (GIST), which can develop in any part of the small bowel.

Carcinoid:

tumours arise in cells that make hormones within the small intestine. These tumours appear more commonly in the ileum and sometimes within the appendix.

Lymphoma:

These tumours start in the lymph tissue of the small bowel. The lymph tissue is part of the body’s immune system. Usually small bowel lymphomas are of the type known as non-Hodgkin lymphoma (NHL), and appear more commonly in the jejunum or ileum.

Causes of small bowel cancer
The cause of most small bowel cancers is unknown. However, some people with non-malignant (non-cancerous) bowel conditions may be at higher risk of developing small bowel cancer. These include Crohn’s disease, coeliac disease, Peutz-Jegher’s syndrome and polyposis. Small bowel cancer is not infectious and cannot be passed on to other people.


Signs and symptoms

The symptoms of small bowel cancer are often vague and difficult to diagnose. They may include any of the following:

blood in the stools (bowel motion)
dark/black stools
vague, crampy abdominal pain
weight loss
diarrhoea.

These symptoms may be caused by many things other than small bowel cancer, but symptoms that are severe, get worse, or last for a few weeks should always be checked by your doctor.

Occasionally the cancer can cause a blockage (obstruction) in the bowel, which may be complete or partial. The symptoms of this are vomiting, constipation, griping pain and a bloated feeling in the abdomen.

Sometimes a blockage in the small bowel can cause the bowel to burst. This is a serious condition that usually occurs suddenly and will need to be treated with surgery. The symptoms include severe pain, shock (a drop in blood pressure) and abdominal swelling.

It was so sad to see her parents crying so badly. She was only 34 whe she passed away. It is very sad to know when someone so young passed away, firstly its due to cancer but you do not know what lead to it. Loosing a daughter @ such a young age is very painful as a parent.

13/7/09

Today was her funeral i took half day at work and wenbt for her funeral. I saw many loved ones who were there to pay respect for her funeral. Something which just struck me was someone do not have to be a famous person or have a post in life to be respected and loved by many.

Many things which i saw also shocked me was the way some people behaved. The way people behaved really pissed me off. Did they come for a funeral or Deepavali celebration?

After the crimination most of us went back to the house of Shanti Akka, her photo was in the middle of the hall so we had to go there pay respect like touch her photo & put the finger on our hearts ( a form of saying she will always remain in our hearts ) . Some idiots did not even bother doing that they just rushed in sat for the food than complaint why this one don' have and that one don't have. I felt so bad for the family and people could give such comments. How dumb?

After everything i was thinking about my death. What would happen if i died. Who would come who wouldn't ? Who would cry outside laugh inside? Who would be real sad?

If I were to pass away i want my coffin to be in white & the only flowers i want is white roses. I do not want any other flowers. I must be wearing a white dress.

Ha. so much for attending just 1 funeral.

Hope Shanti Akka would REST IN PEACE =)