YESSSSSSSS!!!!!!
i wanna be that woman with elegance and class.. i mean come on, which girl doesn't want to right?? i know... but think about it... to be successful in life u have to start somewhere and 1 of the somewhere is how a person dresses up for an event. i mean it's not like as if i am attending a business meeting or anything... i have to dress up appropriately to carry myself well..if not i m just gonna be the girl next door.. i mean i cannot be like our famous and hot stars out there but i bet if i start carrying myself out i bet i can be somewhere someday... it might not be today but that 1 day I'll be here...
i personally don't wanna be that girl who is very dependent on the people around me. like on my dad or my bf or always pawning something... u know that very feeling of not having my favorite phone which means the whole world to me isn't with me or borrowing money from people... i feel damn fucking dumb or maybe like a rotten apple or something... OMG!!!!! u know how sucky that feels..??? i don't know why am i actually feeling all this??? is it because i am turning 21... or is it because movies have influenced me or am i just sick and tired of being like this... i guess its just all of the above...
i mean i don't wanna be that poor girl who is always broke and cannot go out with her fren's to do what she wants... i mean i like partying now since i have tried it and i just hate it when i wanna go but i don't have cash... okay not even partying, if someone says lets go for a movie, i fucking don't even have $20 with me to watch a movie... that is how sad can that be??? haiz... u know i really feel like doing double jobs u know... yes i can be fucking lazy and all but once i start feeling useless ( that happens when i have no cash ) i will start working hard...
maybe for a couple of months or so... u know... like clear and settle everything... take out all the gold in the shop... pay my starhub and singtel bills in full till i have no outstanding...take out my diploma cert and start to have savings... n must chg my wardrobe... i mean even if i don't have a job or something in the future i can at least use on my savings first.. i am suffering like shit now cause i am jobless and have no savings... shit right i know..
i am going for sats interview tomorrow and its like my second time going for it and if i don't get thru this time round, i'll just do security job at night and do some retail sales job in the morning or work at some fnb outlets or something... atleast i still have cash in my hands untill i take my cert out and progress in it... if not i don't think i can go anywhere to progress in it...
my gold inside shop can come up to about 800 bucks plus my cert is 1300 so total i need about 2100 plus my hp bill is about 300 so total roughly about 2500... i obviously cannot earn so much in a mth unless i become an escort or something, which i wouldn't mind but the only thing which is holding me back is that everytime i be with someone i have to have sex with them which is to me not right... i am planning to do settle everything by end of march... so i have to work whole of feb and march, must earn atleast $1500 (bring home) and settle evrything...
first month pay settle phone bill and take out maybe ring n earring, so total will be 300 plus 100 plus 100... so total 500 plus maybe 300 for my cert... so i will be left with only 1000 dollars more from my cert and i still will have 800 dollars to spent and can give mummy 200, save another 200 and still have 400 to spent..
100 bucks for travelling 100 bucks for food and 100 bucks for shopping and all and the last 100 keep for in case of emergency... sounds nice ah to hear...
since i have settled my phone bill's oustanding for starhub i have only singtel... 250 dollars plus 500 for chain... i would have spent 750 already... mummy minus 200, savings minus 200, i will have 350 with me and since it's my bday mth i can spend all... lolx... i bring home 1500 also not enough...
i need atleast 1800 or 2000 if i wanna clear everything fast...
so end of feb i clear singtel 250, plus ring earring bracelet 450, plus 500 for chain... total will be 1200... and atleast i still have 800 to spend and i can continue my normal expenditure...
the following month, end of march, i can clear the
cert's payment of 1350 and ill be left with 650 and can happily settle my expenditures... and once all this done i can just work a normal 1200 paying job or use my cert to move up in life or save for another 6 months and do my degree... either way i still can succeed.. so i actually have to do it... force myself and do it for like mainly 2 months, i can live up to my goals... and i have to live up to my goals... hmmmm...
i need to find a night job which pays me about 55 bucks a days so in 20 days i can earn 1100 per month (without cpf) which only triple 's' do that.. must i go back to that company... no choice.. for temporary reasons i have to go back.. and for morning job i need to find a job that pays 7 bucks an hour, and i work 8 hours everyday for 6 days per week and earn 1344 dollars or 8 bucks per hour work for 5 days per week and bring home about 1280 and aft cpf deduction it'll be 1024 dollars... so add morning and night job i'll earn 1100 plus 1024 which will be 2124 bucks to spent.. more than i expected...
hopefully... i don't plan so much than in the end i go back and fall in the same pit and i think that's gonna be like super dumb.. haiz... i hope whatever i have planned should work out... and i know most of u reading this will say don't hope but do it.. and yes my plans sound a little crazy but at this time i don't think i wanna waste time.. since i am young i rather and better start working hard now... :)))
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