Am I Alone????

Am I Alone?

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,s
ome say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.I

wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.




haiz i m really feeling so down.... i really dono wad to do...

HURT, PAIN & ANGER!!!

i don't know why but i feel so upset hurt and distorted!!! my emotins are like running wild. i don't know is it because i am too stressed or is it because i am starting to become emo!!! i am lost for words and feel left out. i am feeling so lost and even small things which happens feels like as if it is hurting me so much. there is no reason for any pain, hurt nor anger to be present at this moment but there are so much of them present in me right now. i seriously unsure of the reason why.???


i fell that this song is so significant to me at this moment...
HAIZ!!!

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

I'll Move On

I'll Move On

This road that I'm taking twists and turns

My life my chance turning dreams into reality

Down this path faced with many things

Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on

And I've been thru' this before

Now where am I? Where do I stand?

A little lost here

But I'll remember

All those times you've bought me through

I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on

Lord I will take your hand

And you will guide me along

Survive thru' this storm

So I say come what mayI'll hold on to my hope

Yes I will walk down this road

And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain

Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step at a time it's alright

Even through this rain

I want to smile again

Don't hold back now

And I've been thru' this before

Now where am I? Where do I stand?

A little lost here

But I'll remember

All those times you've bought me thru'

I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am

Lord I will take your hand

And you will guide me along

Survive thru' this storm

So I say come what mayI'll hold on to my hope

Yes I will walk down this road

And my passion drive will lead me on

I was at playmax and during the afternoon stagemax Olivia Ong came to present this song and i was touched by this song. It is very encouraging and the words are very meaningful.

Sentosa

31ST MAY 2009



Woke up @ 8.30am thinking that we have to be in church by 10.15am( all coz of Nat!!!!!! ). Walked to the bus stop while walking we saw 39... So we had to run. We caught the bus happily boarded it but my card no money. OH NO! I FORGOT TO TOP UP! Thank God my cousin bro had coins. Reached church at about 10.15am... Waited in the bust stop till 11am. Went inside church spoke to everyone then left for sentosa in the bus at about 11.15am...

SOME PIX TAKEN DURING OUR GAMES TIME...

the whole Sentosa outing ended at 5pm... so tired after Sentosa Jason & I headed straight to Lawrence b'day at some condo... kinda nice ah... chill there for awhile than headed back...

HAIZ...

was fun but so tried...